Since March, my roommate (adult daughter) and I, have mostly quarantined. We go out when we need groceries, trying to limit that to once a week. On Fridays we get a “cheat meal” from a local restaurant. Early in the pandemic, we masked up right away, well before local mandates required them. We feel as if we’ve been doing everything right.
Thing is, there are likely only a handful of people around today who were alive in, and old enough to remember, the Spanish Flue pandemic 102 years ago. Basically, we have no idea how this is supposed to work or even look in today’s world. Some governmental agencies around the world had some preparedness in place, but you never what it’s going to look like until it’s staring you in the face. Basically, none of us knows what we’re doing as we try to make it through our first pandemic (and hopefully the only one in our lifetime).
With that, I have struggled with my feelings for the past few months, and I’m mostly trying to wrap my head around the fact that so many people in the U.S. deny science and/or simply don’t care that their actions could hurt others. Had everyone done the right thing from the beginning, stayed home when they could, avoided going out as much as possible, masking up when they do have to go out, we would not be where we’re at now, with astronomical numbers of sickness and death directly related to Covid-19.
I don’t like being angry. It’s an emotion that does not come naturally to me, and I have firsthand knowledge that it takes up too much space, getting in the way of healing, and also getting in the way of just good things coming into my life. My Tarot card, the 2 of Swords, is described as the “peace at all costs” card. I like peace so much that it’s upsetting to be upset.
I just had to do a grocery run for my mother, and the beleaguered checkout clerk got upset with an elderly man who asked that a woman who refused to wear a mask be kicked out of the store (masks are currently a county mandate where I live). She said she couldn’t handle it anymore, and explained that her company does not allow them to confront the unmasked. The reason? Because the unmasked, being who they are, tend to also be prone to violence when asked to mask up or leave.
After coming home from that grocery run, I vented to some friends online who definitely didn’t deserve the brunt of my anger. They just said, “Well, I hope your day gets better.” I realized then that I need to do something about this. I’m a spiritual person dammit! So why can I not see the light of others who refuse to wear masks in public?
Pray, pray, pray… breathe, breathe, breathe…. meditate, meditate, mediate… and then, duh! Pull a card! I pulled the 4 of Wands and the Page of Cups. The 4 of Wands is breaking free from the bonds that bind us to unhealthy relationships, attitudes, etc… It’s freedom and peace after some effort. The Page of Cups is love. I just have to love, even in the face of ignorance. I’m still learning how to do that because, well, I’m just not perfect.
If I don’t want to deal with people who refuse to wear masks in public, I shouldn’t be in public as much, and when I have to be in public, I’m going to make sure to call in my guides and angels to keep me in a space of love and protection. I can’t wait until this is all over, but until it is, everyone is being forced to change how they act. Those who walk a dark path, the path of ignorance, may not change at all. So it’s up to me to be the change I wish to see in the world.