As I get back to doing what I do best, I’ve been bestowed a beautiful lesson: while I may feel in “flow” (connected) through a reading, the person I’m reading for may not be able to understand or receive the messages being given.
I did two 1-hour readings one day this week. I pray, meditate, and connect – taking about 2-to-3 pages of notes in the 30 minutes leading up to a reading. I also ask for the “theme” of the upcoming reading, like love, money, work, etc… It’s usually correct. After connecting and note taking, I knew my first reading would be quite a bit about love and spirituality. I wrote down the word love and hearts before knowing anything more than a name for my client. The flow was incredible – I picked up on physical ailments, self-love and care issues, and even connected with a recently-passed soul indicating how they passed and what they left behind. I felt incredibly “stoked” and energized after my readings that day – they were strong and quickly-validated and really just felt good.
Fast-forward to the very next day. I got plenty of sleep, ate well the night before, showered, prayed before the reading, etc… but it felt “meh”. I knew the reading would have to do with the physical world (job/money/home/et al). It was confirmed right away that it was job. I was flowing. The information was coming, but I felt like I was running into a brick wall; especially once the reading began. Some people aren’t comfortable validating throughout a session because they don’t want to give away ANYTHING, as if they’re testing me. As an intuitive, you know this is one of the most difficult readings you can get. It doesn’t allow for a natural flow of energy between you, the person your reading for, and Spirit there to help them. Someone who isn’t open enough to validate through quick affirmation throughout a reading may not really be open to the experience of an intuitive truth-telling session. At the end of the hour, I knew – with every ounce of my being – that I was spot on with my responses; but I could tell the person on the other end of the line was not impressed. I hadn’t given them the answer they wanted, in the way they wanted it. The issues this client was asking about included quite a bit of expectation on their part. The message coming through was, now that they’ve turned their desires over to the Universe, they needed to release their expectation of the outcome; which includes releasing what they believe the path should be AND releasing their idea of the result looking exactly as they desire. Throughout the reading, the client indicated over and over that they were holding on tightly, keeping that vision in a chokehold. Therefore, anything else showing up for them with the potential to bring the same, or better, result is therefore blocked.
The client repeatedly asked through their reading, “will this happen at this time like I see it happening?” And my response was, “You’ve got to release your expectation of it. Holding on so tightly to that vision is getting in the way of the allowing.” I realized the reading itself was a version of this same issue; the difficulty in allowing the flow of energy and information because the person couldn’t shake the idea of what it should look like. Some people come into a reading thinking it will tell them all the answers they seek, and when they find out the answers they seek actually require some readjustment on their side, they’re unhappy and unfulfilled by the experience. One of my “rules for reading” is to release all expectation and just allow. I know this is often easier said than done; however, coming into a reading with an expectation of the outcome can negate the Spiritual Truth which is being shared.
The harder reading definitely has me thinking about how I can try to deliver the message even in the face of emotional/spiritual walls and avoidance. I figure, if someone is open enough to ask for the reading in the first place, then they must need to hear the message I’m delivering.